PRE-DEPARTURE!!!!

I was hoping to write my first blog explaining why I am doing what I am doing...but right now I am finally calming down after a major panic attack! I'm not freaking out because I am scared or anything like that (actually I am a bit scared) ...I am freaking out because I LOST EVERYTHING!!!!!!!

The day started rather smoothly...doing my last minute packing. Then around 4pm, Reena and I stepped out to buy Baht currency, buy travellers cheques and buy memory cards for a our digi cams. We stopped at Subway to buy LUNDIN (Lunch/Dinner) as we did not eat anything ALL day. We get home and I got a little too exited to dig into my SUB and try to finish the 5 litres of ice cream we have to get rid of.

As we were preparing to head out again, I was unable to find my wallet with ALL my cards (Drivers licence, SIN CARD, Credit Cards, CASH!!! Debit Card....EVERYTHING!) in my bag and my DVD case filled with my travellers cheques. We turned our place upside down in a frenzy looking for my wallet and travellers cheques but with no luck! We had to end our search party early because we had to head downtown ASAP to pick up our Criminal Background Check Letters before the office closed.

So I get home and go crazy again...it did not help that I was getting calls left and right...I feel so bad for snapping and cussing out my friends (Sorry dawgz but yall called at the peak of my panic attack!!!) I started to wonder if all the craziness pre-departure is a sign not to go. I've had ill feeling about going for the past 2 weeks and I couldn't pin point the reason why. It made me think of the first time I had wanted to go to Thailand back in December 2003 after my Tokyo stint but I didn't end up going because of this wierd feeling inside telling me not to go. That was the year the Tsunami hit. So although I am thinking I shouldn't go, I am still going because I feel things happen for a reason.

So now I am at my cousins' house because my parents are in town and my aunt decided to throw me a going away party with a few of my aunts and uncles and cousins. I leave for the airport in 4 hours and I am still unpacked! So now I think I am finally going to eat something and get back to the grind. Hopefully the next post will be positive and I hope all this ish I am going through will be worth it.

DAMN WHY DOES THIS HAVE TO HAPPEN TO ME NOW!?????!!! Ok I am going to eat, BREATHE and pack! Peace!